Wild One

I really need to get ahold of two things: studies and money. So studies is more immediate because hey, finals are tomorrow, but first I wanted to share about some things before I go radio silent.

Have I mentioned that I love this city? I don't think I have because up until recently I haven't. Mainly because I haven't explored and now that I'm starting to I think that I'm in love. I went hiking up on Mt. Tabor yesterday and the views were absolutely stunning! Gorgeous! I was so mad I didn't have my camera with me. I wanted to share it still so I pulled a pic off of Google Images...Not as great but hey. I also had an amazing breakfast at Swift. A breakfast that was SO incredibly huge, I am eating it this morning with my coffee. Delish. Then later that evening I had the BEST pulled pork quesadilla I've ever had in the history of my life. It was amazing.  Perfect is the only way to describe it. I swear people should just turn 21 to get good food, seriously drinking schminking. I mean it! I had NO idea what I was missing. Portland may have its ups and downs but yesterday just made me completely excited for summer. I'm going to be all over this city and I can't wait for it to happen. Bring it on!

What if I...cut all my hair off.

Okay...Slight exaggeration. Sort of. I've been growing my hair out since my freshman year of college, so three years almost right now. Don't get me wrong, long hair is great. I never imagined how much I enjoy putting my hair up in a ponytail. I also never imagined the dryness, split ends, and how much long hair gets in the way. In short its just one big ugh. And for the first time in three years, I want to cut my hair off.

I have no idea what to do. My hair takes so long to grow so this is no easy feat. 

.help.

As I decide whether or not to cut my hair I'm reminded of a bet I made three years ago with my then boyfriend. A full Olive Garden dinner. Its a bittersweet memory but at the same time there's no use dwelling in the past because it only makes your future rocky. I refuse to live in the past anymore. People do not often understand how hard the past is to recover from, and how much it can affect you. My past serves as a reminder that your health and your life is so much more important than anyone else. You cannot be in a relationship if you are not properly taking care of yourself. No matter what you or anyone else tells you. Take care of yourself first. 

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat
I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weaker days
I'm stronger, now what, so I say
But something's missing

Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out
What now? Whoa, what now?

I found the one, he changed my life
But was it me that changed
And he just happened to come at the right time
I'm supposed to be in love
But I'm numb again

Whatever it is, it feels like
It's laughing at me through the glass of a two-sided mirror
Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me
And I just wanna scream

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out
What now? Please tell me
What now?

There's no one to call cause I'm just playing games with them all
The more I swear I'm happy, the more that I'm feeling alone
Cause I spent every hour just going through the motions
I can't even get the emotions to come out
Dry as a bone, but I just wanna shout

What now? I just can't figure it out
What now? I guess I'll just wait it out (wait it out)
What now? Somebody tell me
What now?

I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know ow ow why
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know ow ow why
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to feel
I don't know how to cry
I don't know ow ow why

So what now?

I got the idea for mixtapes from Rylee Blake. Check out her blog. Link on the right side of my page. This first one is all the music that I listen to if I'm frustrated with someone or just needing to feel empowered. Its also amazing to dance to. Sometimes life just gets you down and music can just bring you back up.

Bikini Coffee, NODAC, and N.I

Three incredibly different things all combined into one post...

So this morning a couple guys from the VA and I went to NE to get coffee. Where do those boys take me? Bikini Brew. I have been asked about my views on neo-feminism a lot lately, so I guess this just takes the cake. Literally girls in bikinis serving coffee. Not sure how I feel about that. Not sure if I'd ever do that. But that may be just me. Oh well. Super good coffee. That's all I got on that.

Check out that nondescript coffee cup and sleeve. Yep. Like a bottle of jack in a brown paper bag.

Number two on my list this morning, NODAC. National Orientation Directors Association Conference for region 1. Part of my job as being a Team Lead this year involves me attending this conference for our region with part of my team. Although the break out sessions were pretty awful I learned a lot about grad school and spent an amazing time with my team. I am so blessed to be with such a fantastic group of people and get to spend the whole summer with them. They are spectacular. I am so lucky. I cannot say that enough. 

Be jealous! 

Last on my list. A shout out to N.I Nothings Impossible. This fantastic company is amazing. They support education, breast cancer, and the peace core with their awesome gear. Follow them on Instagram @nothingsimpossibleni and check out their website here.


From the N.I site:

Our Story

At N.I we are Young, Passionate, Creative Minds. That are on a mission to show Everyone Nothing’s Impossible. N.I was founded by 21 year old, Nash Iorg January 1st 2012. As time went on the company evolved to Stree Wear Lifestyle Brand, Nothing’s Impossible. We at N.I are all about giving back and making a difference in the world any way we can. 10% of our proceeds go to furthering kids education around the world in our Phenomenal Education Program.

So backstory on this picture, I got my bullet necklace in the mail from them and then I saw them having a contest to win a Peace Bullet. So I tried to win it but kinda gave up because hey, I just got one and then they decided to give me a coupon for 15% off just for my support. They are an amazing company. Definitely will be picking up their awesome N.I hoodie with this coupon. Simply amazing. 

Sunny with a side of ammo. 

xoxo,

Kate