I swear I've learned more about love these past couple weeks, maybe even days, than I have ever. Sometimes love means letting go and moving on because that's really what's best for you. It sucks in the moment because it literally feels like death, but I bounce back and the love you experience from everyone around you is the best feeling ever. Then you have reminders from people that you indeed are beautiful, despite how ugly you might feel. How much guys still admire you and wish they could be with you. It doesn't take away the pain but it gives you the push to keep moving on and know that everything is going to be okay. I've been learning to just trust, and let things happen. I am such a control freak and I need to quit it! There's no chance if I take all the luck out of it! I'm just letting God do his thing with me right now and having a good time. I can feel my world and options expanding and I love this feeling! I didn't think I'd go to bed with a smile on my face but I totally do every night. Completely content with where my life is headed even though I don't know where that is going to go exactly. This time next year, who knows? I could be engaged, I could be moving to Texas for grad school, I could be in a different country, I could be in Portland still. So many options and I love it! Turning that page is really difficult but when it's time, it's time. Thank goodness. I am not dependent on anyone else anymore. That's an amazing feeling. I'm not going to let anyone be a buzz kill to that!
xoxo,
Kate
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