Something More

So I've been gone for a few weeks I know. I guess some pretty huge life events happened. I just couldn't put them into words or didn't want to until now. Until I knew things were over and it was time to turn over a new page, to a new chapter. I have had a crisis of conscience about my God and about my life. I have to come to the firm conclusion that I cannot just believe in fate, in luck, or any of those things. There have been times when I have called out to God and He has answered me. He has given me the "aha" moments of a lifetime. He has given me gut feelings that could only come from Him. I am a sociology major, I have studied Durkheim's theories on religion. Yet, when I think about them, they are really just theories, all of them. No one knows what happens really when we die. What if I live my life completely for nothing or for myself, and end up missing out on life completely? I love my God. He has never abandoned me. However complicated this life can be with all of its competing values and conflicting ideals. I love Him because He has me in His heart and in His vision. I may believe in gay marriage and equal rights but I believe Jesus Christ died on the cross to save me. This is my choice and my choice alone.

I am single now. Can you believe how much someone is able to touch your life? The bits and pieces and the large spotlights that were once his? I loved him with all my heart but I had a gut feeling and at times I wanted to take it all back I take comfort knowing I cannot regret my decision and that this will get easier as time passes. It brings me to knowing new people and having new experiences. Hopefully knowing myself.

So new page. New chapter. Same me. Being me and nothing else. I am excited to share all of this with you.

I interviewed for a new job today! From my bedroom, actually on my bed, and on my laptop. Technology has never ceased to amaze me. I hope so much I get this position. It will further open my eyes and allow me to have an awesome time this summer with great people.

Webcam interviews....

I am so excited to hear back from them and hopefully its soon because I really hate this waiting process. I really feel like God opened the door for this to happen and has really paved the path for me. I think He knows I need something like this right now to keep my eyes on the road and from straying away from the path. So we will see! I did my best. 

I am so thankful for Aspen right now as well. He is my buddy and my pride and joy. I cannot believe how lucky I am to have this little boy in my heart. He's the sweetest puppy I've ever met. 

Aspen and Maile 

xoxo,

Kate